Note: My stats are showing more and more people searching for bulimia — I don’t have the answers. That’s why I’m posting this tonight. I am receive a dozen or more hits every day now wanting to know about bulimic prayers, hope, healing, etc. I’m just now coming face to face with the damages I caused my body when I was younger. While I no longer physically purge food — I was released from that captivity several years ago – I do still at times over eat, over exercise, and starve for the wrong reasons. — if any of this is an issue for you, please please PLEASE check out the page my friend gave me. Setting Captives Free. I’ve committed to it myself, starting today. It’s a wonderful sight. Thanks.
The first question I see in every weightloss program I’ve ever tried is “Why do you want to lose weight?”
That’s a loaded question, don’t you think? Why do any of us want to lose weight?
- Fit in that new dress / bathing suit.
- Look good for vacation / wedding / class reunion.
- Find a Mate. (Already have one)
- Build my self-esteem
- Be healthy and live longer.
- Get my blood pressure and sugar back down to reasonable levels.
- Be more successful as a worker / performer / speaker
- Finally wear skinny jeans again.
- Receive positive attention from others.
Lots of choices to that question, but something tells me (other than looking ahead) all of my answers are incorrect.
I ran into an old friend this weekend. Someone I hadn’t seen in ages. She looked great. What I noticed first though, was her eyes. They had this light that I feel like I’ve lost. I wanted to know what she was doing differently. I mean I’m reading the Bible. I’m praying, I’m studying healthy eating habit and I’m exercising.
Then she said something really great – eating disorders cover false idols.
I had never until that very moment thought of the idol of being thin.
It was a total “aha” moment for me.
It was immediately obvious that I’m doing something very different from what she is doing. She’s living to honor God, I’m living to get thin again. No wonder my eyes look tired and her’s don’t. If I’m is a contraction of I am. Maybe I’m focusing on the wrong I AM?
Think about it.
An idol is a false god — something that replaces the real God we have in Christ.
CONFESSION: Every single reason I have ever – in my life – had, for wanting to lose weight — is an idol. Approval, self-esteem, respect, personal health, success, control. None of my choices had anything to do with God. No wonder I continue to fail. I’ve made it all about me.
What about you?
What is your reason for wanting to lose weight?
This post written by Deana O’Hara for Redemption’s Heart: Confessions of a Spiritual Bulimic. All rights reserved. No goods or services were given in exchange for the endorsement of Setting Captives Free. I am only sharing a resource that I myself find to be very useful.